maybe, i'm afraid of myself.

one could be 'not in service'

there's really two ways of looking at things.

when you come across a motel that's full. you could either think 'it's disgusting. people are taking time off to fuck each other's brain out. adulterous pigs, sinners!'... OR you could think 'so much love in the world, motels are all full'.

read me wise. i'm trying to say you choose how you want to think, and how you want to look at the world, at problems, at issues, at people, at situations, at yourself.

less is more

source: PostSecret

where less is actually more...

when there's crack lines. hurry up to rebuild it. before it is too late.

the business of pleasure

ever thought of asking for payment after sex? or maybe negotiate on the payment before sex? no, i'm not citing a transaction between a whore and a customer. not the typical business transaction between two individuals engaging in the business of pleasure. what i'm saying is merely a suggestion on how to inject spice into your sex lives.

give it a thought. play the role of a dirty whore, when you know 'somehow' you're being paid for your service, you'll assume the role of the temptress, the sex goddess (perhaps you could 'charge' RM10,000 per night) and deliver the kind of 'service' a high class escort of RM10,000/night will deliver. the control, the confidence, the power over the man paying you.. the eagerness. of course, it's a make-believe confidence and make-believe role-play. but, if you allow yourself to let loose and immerse fully into the role that you are playing, you'll be in for surprises.. minx aren't born, they are made.

it's not hard to spice up mundane sex lives, really. just takes a little bit of imagination, a little enthusiasm, a little adventure and a very hungry mind.

read beyond the story, read between the lines

Opportunity dances with those on the dance floor. -- Anonymous

how to dance? when i'm constantly feeling the paranoia of not being able to dance as good as the others? the worry of my heels breaking, my skirt tearing, my dance moves going haywire and that the crush of my life will find me disgusting. it's like high school prom all over again.

the other problem that adds to the confusion is a mixture of disapproving looks from the teachers, mom choosing my prom dress (*gasp* horror, i know), mom curling my hair to resemble the 70s star and mom doing my make up! dad driving me to the prom while my brother stood guard the entire time. - read: red tapes.. not making the process of making a choice any easier.

yeah, it's easy to say 'take a leap of faith, take the plunge, why not just do it?'. i wish i can.. but deep down i know the answers to all the 'why not'.

the safe

i dont have a consistent vault. i dont confide in the same person for all issues. different selected individuals know different aspects and deepest darkest secret in my life. it’s safer not to have one person holding THE key to my closet.

i practice keeping many vaults, different places, filled in at different times. you’ll have to find these individuals and read from these vaults to wholly grasp my essence of being..

authentically so

it's hard to reconnect. it's hard to let out the current situation when i haven't been sharing all that has been going on, from day 1. it doesn't feel right to retell the whole story at one go. the feelings won't be as authentic, nor will the story be as real.

the next time you ask me whether i am okay, i will just nod and smile and say 'i am fine'.

reserve

always reserve :

never speak too loudly

never defend too strongly

never back down too easily.


reserve and balance, for you might not know when the statements, the defence, the defeat will come back to haunt you. you will never know, it's a vicious chain effect. reserve and leave a lil' space for salvation.

CEO of J.P Morgan Fantastic reply to a Pretty Girl

MINDBLOWING THOUGHT PROCESS!!!

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here. I'm 25 this year. I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above. You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York. My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married?

I wanted to ask:
what should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York CityGarden(?), $250k annual income is not enough.

I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:
Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
Which age group should I target?
Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking? I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys.
How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? My target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty


Awesome reply:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours.
Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain. Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money": Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square.

However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year. Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later. By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position". If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased".

Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in "leasing" services, do contact me...

signed,
J.P. Morgan

im a useless piece of pretty shit, if u ask me