Dear Me,
How have you been? It has been a while since we last spoke, last communicated. It has been a while since we last felt each other’s warmth breath and soft embrace. I missed you, more so today than yesterday. And definitely more when ‘morrow comes as with today.
Enough of the pleasantries.. now tell me, what happened? All these time that we are not in touch, I kept wondering what happened to us? I could not pinpoint the exact time that we drifted, the specific moment or event that took a wrong turn. What happened? Was it internal, external? Was it inflicted, caused or made? How did we drift so far apart without knowing? What happened?
Remember when we used to be one? Used to have so many aspirations, so many wants and wishes and so many ambitions? How we wanted to help make life better for ourselves, family, for society, for people who matter? Remember how we were so afraid of losing sight of goodness and charity in the pursuit of success and wealth? Remember the thoughts we pen down? Remember this circa 2009?
“it worries me. that in the pursuit of a career, a successful career, that i will somehow forget or lose sight about the things i want to do. help i want to offer and comfort i wish to give to those in dire need. satisfactions that i wish to get from seeing someone else's lips curve into a smile, whispers of 'thanks' escaping the mouths of those receiving. gratitude and appreciation in the eyes of the less fortunate. i wish to give, but i'm afraid that i will be too caught up with life and neglect those more in need than i will ever be. i wish that i will never forget this responsibility i put upon my shoulders, to carry out the duty of a civilian, helping another civilian in need. i hope i will always remember... every little act of kindness matters.”
I hope that it is not too late to write to you now. I hope that it is not too late to realize the ambition we once had and to relive the fire and wants now. I hope that we could reconnect and re-synergize. I hope that we could become one again, I hope that I won’t lose you anymore, I hope that you will respond and talk to me again.. I hope that the me 3 years ago could come back to be with the me today..
Lost and wondering,
Me Too
