as honest as i can be, sometimes i don't see

as much as you try standing behind that pillar, people see.

as much as you try to stand under the spotlight, darkness overrules.

as much as i may tell myself i no longer ask, 'why' still escapes me..

cultivate mistakes

i think i now know what it feels like. for me to share my experiences with people younger than me, at the same time i have this notion in my head telling me, 'hey, let them experience life at their own pace. let them make all the mistakes. let them get burnt, let them go down the wrong paths. they learn at their own pace and they learn better lessons, more valuable ones than being told, being cautioned what is right/wrong/should/should not'.


when i was told/shared stories of how i should pay attention to this, consider that.. i reflect on all the younger people whom i've spoken to. like them, i should be allowed to grow at my own pace, make all the mistakes, collect all the experiences and venture into all the forbidden territories as much as i can to really learn..

somemore dough, anyone?

in today's world, when i come across a person who is money-conscious and advocates debt-free lifestyle, it's an immediate plus point.

too many people earn too little and spend too much. contingency plan much?

it's obvious

as i recap today, i realise that we are all walking billboards of unspoken thoughts, unannounced dissatisfactions and unnoticed feelings. some are afraid to stand up, some are complacent, most choose to ignore the feelings, the calling and/or the given opportunity to right the wrong.

we are all billboards containing many mixed messages in many colourful words and languages, walking about in 3D world, confining the make-believe 2D thoughts

fear gets defeated with action, made stronger with inaction.

we adopt habits as long as we live

a new habit that i've adopted. to check on work emails on sunday nights. i've long noticed that i could be quite the workaholic if i didnt put myself on checks.

coinciding with my believe for passion.

we respect ourselves the way we treat our work and the way we perform, the way we live life. utmost respect when we do things correctly and walking the extra mile. no, i don't think i'm stupid nor having a lot of wishful thoughts.. i know i can be somebody and go somewhere, just gotta work towards it, and work along the lines of dreams and aspirations.

i'm not stupid, i just need to get sorted out.

try as i may, i can never break free from the dark side. have been trying to tweak the look and feel of this site for the past one hour. still the same ol' red, dark and mysterious feel.

i envy people who maintain commercial blogs.